I know I have not been healthy myself, with the knowledge of my dog is terminal and trying to accept his fate, I have not taken care of myself either. Since I got back I have not eaten much, not exercised, missed some of my meds, haven’t showered.
Definitely stressed out
Couple good things, silver linings if you will, Toto is eating, Toto finally pooped, my wife will be home with me and we got a comcast upgrade with faster connection.
Weight back under 330.
Weight: 328.2
Today at about 8:30AM, my daughter and I talked to the vet, and it she confirmed Toto’s diagnosis of Mucocele. What hit me hard was finding out he had at most 2 weeks to live. I didn’t really process what was happening till my daughter gave me his collar. I burst into full blown crying.
As I post I am still processing.
Cancelled a weekend getaway with my wife.
He was/is such a good thing for me. I think it is time to let go.
Coworker said this “Better a month early than a day late.”
I was going to post here on my dog, but I think he deserves an entire page.
I don’t feel like working out, at all. I need to get through this grief in a healthy way.
Weight: 330.6
One of the things that I finally experienced was having Internet on the plane. It was an unexpected pleasant surprise when I flew to Hawaii.
But going back, I am on the fence.
There was a scene in Star Trek Generations the movie where Picard gets bad news while out in space and wishes like the years before when sailors were disconnected from the news. I felt a little bit of that today. The news that my dog was confirmed with a fatal disease.
I remember getting the news and having to wait to get home.
Anyway, just doing pushups and situps, maybe even tomorrow, I am so emotionally drained with the news.
Weight: 332.4
Got news that was eventually going to happen, found out my dog my not have much time left.
He is y first pet as an adult, I feel he has lived a good life. I do hope the news is wrong, but I suspect I need to prepare myself.
I am on Maui now, got the news as I was flying interisland. Wish I was not on this trip.
I did get my fitbit goals, also seahawks lost and the fridge is failing again.
Did my steps late again, got them done at a little past 7PM, and went into town.
Noticed things were mostly closed on a Saturday night. Pascua Store was open and I was able to get a drink.
Got bread right after that.
Molokai Burger was going strong but was gonna close at 9PM.
Family asked to visit and I went to their house at about 7:58 and they were asleep.
Early to bed this town.
I got my steps done on Molokai, got quite a bit done on Molokai today, had someone check out the house give me some tips.
Dunno how much is this gonna cost, we will see
I started my steps a little past 5:30 closer to 6, headed to Kaunakakai from Kamilaloa Heights. Scary thing on the way back it got dark fast, walking in the dark on a rural road was not the safest of things
I did hit the hill, and from my walk it was clear the hill was more than 10 floors.
No scale no weigh in.
Headed to Maui now, doing a quick post incase I cannot edit later.
Dunno why but flying seems too much of a burden. Someday hope it will be fun again.
Losing weight may help.
Weight: 327.0
Didn’t think it was gonna make it today, wasn’t really paying attention. Then lo and behold, after a hard swim and some time in the jacuzzi, I hit the lowest weight since I been tracking in the database.
It will be a while before I beat the 243.0 weight in August 2010, on this blog, but it was a happy surprise.
As I post, I still have not packed, still got a lot to go. A lot to do. Still haven’t showered or eaten dinner.
Did find out that tailscale does expire, and I need a contingency for remote access.
But here it is, I gonna mark this as a milestone just once, cause the real prize is to beat 243.0.
Weight: 326.2
I reached out yesterday to see who could help us out with stuff on Molokai. Found couple people, that should help in the maintenance of our property.
Speaking of Molokai, soon to be headed there. Time running short.
Finished my steps late, walking in light rain, I think I am ready. But idiot driver tried to hit me.
Weight: 328.2
I dropped off my son to his dorm last night, at the same time I deployed a small server stack for his use.
One of the challenges in the past was getting connected to wifi. The Wifi used WPA2 enterprise. But I figured it out, documentation provided by the school was good.
It is eduroam used but other schools as well
Now I have an offsite server.
My Brother label printer came in too, pretty cheap but no power supply. Works though.
Three days in a row, also lowest weight of the year. Two more pounds and it will be the lowest since I started tracking weight in a database.
Weight: 328.0
